My kite flying story..........

When I was just a Kid

I used to play alone, most of the time.

I made kite, which do not fly.

I cried to my mother, Kite made by my mother never flew.

I cried to my neighbour *Pupu, Kite made by Pupu always flew.

It might be because he used potato glue.

I ran and fly, I ran in the street, in the afternoon time, when road was all empty.

I cried silently when my kite stuck to electric post.

When I grown up little, I started making kite, and stop crying for kite.

I made kite with the stick, broken from the bamboo broom.

Whole day I made, when it was ready

Most of the time, Sun didn’t wait to see me flying my kite.

When I grown up little more, I was a good kite maker

I stopped running for flying my kite.

I sat silently looking at my kite, flying above my head in the sky,

far away from the ground, opposing the strong wind.

When I grown up, I stopped flying kite.

But sometime I wish .......................................

*pupu - grandpa

It is all about how I think....

“A kid could not sleep, he went to see his mother, she used to say him “I’ll give you a magic drink, and then you’ll sleep”, and she gave him water with a bit of sugar (he, of course didn’t know it was sugar), and she mixed it well in front of him, and… it worked !”

Researchers found that the belief over the placebo pill lessens the pain even when it isn’t chemically design to do so, this mistaken belief decreases activation of the amygdala and pain related structures such as the cingulate and the insula while increasing activation of the lateral and medical prefrontal regions. The above phenomenon is called placebo effect, i.e. “a substance or procedure ... that is objectively without specific activity for the condition being treated". Placebo is a terminology used in the medicine science, which deals with human psychology and power of thinking. I am not a medicine student, who can explain you about the placebo effect in details. I am a management student, with hobby of reading and exploring new things from various subjects and trying to connect those things with management science. How placebo is linked to management? There are so many self help books available in market. The first self help book I read was Dr. Norman Vienciet Peal’s “Power of Positive Thinking”, and I never regretted of reading this. As some people said happiness is nothing but our mindset, I am always curious to know how come this thinking, an intangible process, can bring a tangible change to our life?

I am trying to say, Placebo is power of positive thinking, the optimistic power that can heals the suffering.

Positive thinking is always associated with the word expectation, when a patient goes to a doctor, he went with the expectation, the doctor will definitely cure his disease and the medicine given by him will be helpful. This expectation seems more important than the drug given by doctor. One more interesting thing is, the pricier the drug, the higher the expectation of efficacy, and stronger the placebo effect. Here shows the proportionate relationship between price and quality of the product. It is not only applicable in medical science; it is applicable in every field. The branded goods are more expensive than the unbranded goods though the quality and design is same.

From the above paragraph three headings come into my mind: 1. Placebo and expectation, 2. Importance of pricing, and 3. Trust.

Placebo and expectation:

In service marketing it says, when your customer exceeds its expectation he is a satisfied customer. It simply means, the only secret mantra for excellent customer service is fulfilling and exceeding customer’s expectation. (I don’t want to go deeper here, identifying the expectations is also a vast subject). Expectation is universal process, applicable in every fields. Since there is no free lunch, there is no action without expectation hiding in the back. Be it love, helping, whatever the action is, there is always an expectation. Is goal a part of expectation?

Importance of pricing:

We always think, the higher the price the better the quality. It is the theory which gives chance to the marketers to fool the customers. The perceived value increases along with the price. The free service, though it is the novelist thing, many a time it does not get excellence, because people do not give importance in it, they take it lightly. It may be the reason why the government schools in our state (where the fee is very less) does not perform well, in spite of having all kind of infrastructure and facilities.

Trust:

I don’t want to say much about it. Everyone knows how much important it is. There is no happiness, no relation, no action, and no success without it. We would not have existed if trust is not there. We just need it.

In conclusion, why placebo? Because we become what we think, not what we eat. We live with incomplete knowledge; there are so many things we do not know. Every day we are encountered with some miracles. Thinking good will obviously will bring good news to us. Expecting best will always bring best result to us. The pain and hard work we put is a price without it, the life would not have any value. The trust, let us live with it.

Fear series 1: Fear of Writing Blog..

Obstacles are like wild animals. They are cowards but they will bluff you if they can. If they see you are afraid of them... they are liable to spring upon you; but if you look them squarely in the eye, they will slink out of sight. ~Orison Swett Marden

When I was in fourth standard I tried to write a story, I started writing, after writing few pages, before completing, I showed to my mother and few trusted people. I still remember my mama appreciated me but some of my dear ones laughed at me. Obviously the story was stupid. I felt shy and didn’t complete it. I had forgotten that once I had a wished to become a writer.

When I was in seventh standard of my high school life, I had submitted a poem, a stupid poem on corruption, to our school’s magazine co-ordinator. It was not selected for publication. Those days are happy days, the feeling of failure never hunted me. There was always something to do and something to think and never got time to feel sad about the failure of past. But I had completely forgotten the feeling of writing.

Thanks to my professor and few very good friends of my college, because of them I have started feeling of writing after long years of my life. But the difficulty was answering the questions - for whom to write, for what to write and what to write? These are the questions I had to answer before started writing. Yes I found the answers - I would write for myself, I would write because I feel writing and I would write anything about whatever I feel.

I found blogging is a good option for practicing my writing. Yes I opened my blog on February 2010 but I could not write anything. Why? Because I feared, I was feared of writing.

Hold on! Am I feared of writing? I did introspection why I fear of writing. And found few reasons, reasons that showed me the medicine of curing my fear too.

The first reason I found was I am not a good writer and I never wrote before. Ok if it is the real reason for my fear I should not have thought of writing because I was not born as writer. And obviously I have to start from the beginning, in the beginning stage how I will be good at what I do?

The second reason was I am feared of mistakes. Everybody fears of mistakes, so I am. But is it the real reason for my fear of writing blog? The mistakes may be the grammatical mistake and spelling mistake. If it is grammatical mistake I should not feel ashamed because English is not my mother tongue. And being a human being how can I escape from the trap of mistake.

The third reason is I am too much worried of what other will think about me. Will they laugh at me because of my writing, will they think that I am a stupid, or will they find my mistakes?

But all these reasons were baseless and completely wrong. The real reasons are I was not confident, I had no courage to follow my wishes, I was over pessimist about what other will think about me, in reality nobody has the time to think and judge me. Therefore all the reasons are just illusions.

“Fear itself is an illusion I conclude”.

Love u 2011.... but I have to say bye bye....

I am not a boring guy, and don’t perceive me as boring guy just because in this evening of New Year, I am sitting alone in my room with a hot cup of Assam tea thoroughly mixed with Nestle milk...  ... Sometime loneliness is the best partner to be sitting with. Accompany of hot tea and little chilling weather is a perfect match. After some time my mama and echan(sister) will return from their New Year evening walk. Before returning them to home, let me thank 2011 for everything and for good and very good experiences (every difficult moment I went through are very good experiences because I learnt many thing from those).

2011 loved me, kissed me, kicked me and some time threw me far from my wishes and wants to make me stronger and wiser, though I am not sure whether I became stronger and wiser, but one thing is sure that, I have changed a lot in both in-side and out-side. The chilling temperature of Delhi and Lucknow, the aggressive nature of Delhi city, the soft and sweet Hindi language of Lucknow, the soft nature of Kolkata, the aggressive and humid climate of Chennai with soothe nature of Chennai beach, welcoming and familiar nature of Guwahati are few memorable moments given to me as gift by 2011.

2011 gave me a new job with many hopes in it and snatched my old job that is not fit to my personality and not matching with my future goal. It is the year that shows my path where I have to travel.
Over all 2011 was a great year for me, it was great because of people whom I have interacted, the lessons they taught me and the love and care they gave me and the wishes they conveyed me.

I am also sure that this 2012 will be more interesting one. Let this New Year’s celebration washes all the sorrows of bomb blast, earth quake, economic blocked and many more sufferings.

Seriously I want to fall in Love

Life indeed is meaningless without love. Love that motivates, love that inspiress, love that energises mind and body is what I am searching for. I am searching for the love that will bring meaning in each moment of my life. Want to drink the wine of love that makes me forget everything other than my lover. No sorrow, no tensions just love. Let the whole world goes wrong to me when my lover is with me. When everyone stands against me, let my lover be with me for me and so I am.


Living in the world of romance, that makes my life meaningful, where only happiness exists and sorrows are also considered as happiness. I know everyone of us want such love but very few people are lucky enough to get such a lover. Luck is what decides by karma they perform the strategy they applied and the hard work they put. Love is blind and I want to be blind for my lover. Love is blind because my lover may not be beautiful to other’s eyes. When people are in love they do not care what other think about them, they love and they are happy in their romance. In the initial phase of their romance, people think they are crazy but they make history and their names never die.


Love is a verb to be done with a noun. Why many people are not successful in their love? There are many reasons. First, they fall in love with many, no commitment. It is because he falls in love because others tells his/her lover is beautiful, judgment is by others not by himself/herself. Second, fear of falling in love because it needs responsibility. Responsibility requires hard work and pain. Third, lack of patience and persistence. Difficult situationss come into life and it has to be faced not to run away from it. Fourth, lack of trust and believes to whom he/she loves. Trust is the most powerful bond but invisible to eye. Without it, nothing can succeed. Fifth is huge investment and expenditure. It requires lots of spending of time, money, sometime friends and dear ones too for the sake of love.


Every moment many new love stories are written. Very few published and known to us. Mother Teresa falls in love with “service to mankind”, which forgets her to return to her own country. And blind her to think what others will think about her when she went and ask for a donation for the diseased children to the people. Love of Bill Gates towards the computer that forces him to go to lab every midnight. There are so many romantic people we read and heard about them. A.R. Rahman and his romance with music, Sachin Tendulker and his romance with cricket, Dhirubhai Ambani with business, Pele with football, Amitabh Bachchan with acting, list is endless.


Some people start falling in love very early and some people very late. It may be because of the hormones due to the pituitary gland that triggers and activate by the environment where they grow up. I really do not care about others, what makes me feel sick is why I do not fall in love yet, a true love that never dies.


Note: Dear friends thank you for reading. Kindly look at the love from holistic point of view. Please remember the definition of love is not limited to the chemistry between boyfriend & girlfriend, husband & wife. And in the same way, love story is not limited to the story of Romeo & Juliet, Laila & Majnu and Khamba & Thoibi.

Importance of small things:

For the want of a nail, the shoe was lost,
For the want of a shoe, the horse was lost,
For the want of a horse, the rider was lost,
For the want of a rider, the battle was lost,
For the want of a battle, the kingdom was lost
All for the want of a horseshoe nail.
-Benjamin Franklin

We always dream of bright future and big success. Whenever we plan about our life it is full of only big things created by those big dreams. Life indeed is made up of small things, ordinary and small events. Julia Fletcher Carney said, “Little drops of water, little grains of sand make the mighty ocean and the pleasant land; so the mighty minutes, humble though they be, make the mighty ages of eternity.”

The truth is real happiness, a true happiness come without expectations, is in these small things not in big achievements. Smile of a three year old baby, the warm feeling of a small kid’s palm when it holds our finger, a small meaningful tear in the beautiful eyes, a small smile in the lip, a butterfly in a garden, few exchanges of trust and beautiful words with friend and dear ones also gives happiness. Such happiness does not take permission from us to enter into our life, they just enters and make our moment beautiful. Sometime towards a complete stranger also we share our happiness with our eyes, with a small smile and few beautiful words like thank you and good day. Some small things are more beautiful when we exchange it, small is so easy to exchange; negligence that enrich its value.



When I left my home for higher study my goal was to get degree and job, which is the big thing. Today I got what I wished and working for the new wishes that I will achieve one day. But when I went back to those days the things that make me smile in a lonely evening is those small things. Small fight with tutor of the hostel, interesting story of our senior, evening walk with friends, and pulling lacks of dear ones, those joke and those fun mixed up with little adrenaline. Those small moments makes my life more beautiful. “Friend in need is friend indeed”, how true the statement is but many people don’t understand the real meaning. It may be because of the negligence; negligence due to small. All those small moments are not sweet in test, some bitter and spicy moments make the life more beautiful. It is like small amount of salt and chilli enhances the taste of curry. The memory of those small moments of friendship is the most important moment in life and that makes our life wonderful.

Few small and meaningful word of my teacher and respectable people makes my life meaningful, those small moment spent inside library and those small books I read and those small moment spent inside the classroom make this life more interesting. The small mistake in my Hindi brings small happiness to my friends and colleagues, and their happiness is my memory, a memory that will bring smile on my face when I am alone.
Fear of exam, excitement of result, an unknown feeling when we wear new dress, increases in heartbeat rate because of some wonderful reasons, beautiful eye contact and those small words. These are the small things that make our big dream meaningful. So many small things I want to share, many are just to feel, unable to share. I know you are also feeling those small things and happiness created by it........

Good day..

From my unexpected job profile...

Life is full of unexpected things, and in every unexpected happening there is some expectation hidden inside. These hidden expectations once realised people started learning more. At last he realised most of the part of learning is realisation. Realisation of what he knows already. Common sense is so uncommon in common life.

One guy did MBA with not expectation of what he is doing now. Does it hurt him? It did but vanishes when he found the expectations inside the unexpected happening. Every coin has both head and tail likewise every job has both positive and negative. Sharing positive increases positive and reduces negative. The greatest art is converting negative into positive. Convincing self is tougher than convincing a customer. Learning is the best tool for convincing self. Realising the learning is the result of self convincing. Realising is an art, the art of telling what I have learnt. This art is a continuous process where many dots have to connect. I am working like a teacher that I have never expected. Oh! The word “teacher” the most respected one, but most pain to me because it is not what I have expected. But there is something that people cannot see, the challenges that look easy but most difficult.

Being a teacher is not teaching, it is learning indeed. In a class thirty students learn from one teacher, but the teacher learns from 30 teachers. Every student teaches something, they collectively teach many things.

A class room with thirty students means thirty different people with different levels of understanding. The biggest challenge is defining what actually I am teaching. Is the Logistics or Supply chain management? Or is it teaching how to learn Logistics or Supply Chain Management? Why should they learn? Being a teacher, is it my responsibility to answer the question why should they learn? I do not have the answer but for making them understand what I am teaching, growing the interest of the subject inside them is necessary.
There are some attribute to be possess for being a student manager, I prefer to use student manager, since I am not yet a teacher.

The first quality to be possessed for being a student manager is ignorance. Like unlearning is harder than learning, ignorance is sometime very difficult. The most difficult is to identify what to ignore and what not to.

Second attribute is forgiveness, forgiving someone is really tough job. And students do many mistakes, knowingly and unknowingly, since mistake is a part of student. Ignorance may make it easy.

Third is balancing ego. Every day is a test; every class is an examination hall where many examiners are there to judge my performance. Their body language tells how I am performing. That makes me happy, that makes me sad too. All the examiners are not alike, some are too bad, that hurts ego. How to handle it is an art, most important skill to possess. Ego sometime hurts the most and wounded person is a weak person.

Fourth is empathy, without that I cannot understand them. A tool to understand for giving best is empathy.

The fifth is, loving my job. Loving my job make me feel good, a good mind is a happy mind. Happy mind is a productive mind, since happy is unconditional; the unconditional mind work in right brain that put my work into my day dreams. That let me visualize, visualization is a mental practice. And practice make perfect.

Learning is easy; expressing what I have learnt is difficult. Easy things forget soon, difficult things are difficult to forget. What I have expressed is just a small part of what I have learnt. Since tomorrow is there, I will come again to express more.

Everything changes with time, the meaning of lesson I am learning today will also change. But still let me realise that change.